Wednesday, April 6, 2011

it just feels right

"It's all gonna be fine.
It just feels right.
It has the whole time."

It's scary to look ahead and realize God wants me to move mountains. It's comforting to know that the mountains won't seem like mountains if I agree to trust Him completely. Could this be it?

God, do you know that I'm scared? Do you know I feel lost and I'm trying so hard to hear your voice? Do you know I'm worried more about what other people will think than what you think? Do you know that if I do this then I'm solely going to be relying on you and that's something I haven't done to this extent before? Do you know that I feel so overwhelmed by a deal that I keep claiming 'isn't a big deal' ? I know in my heart that you're speaking to me to make a change in my life, but I'm startled by the way you're delivering the message...the world I'm surrounded by, that I'm living in is screaming for me to deny it. Is this for real? Please, help me see past the messenger to you. Help me to hear you. Won't you come close and hold my heart? Won't you help me act upon your will alone? In your name, Amen*