alone

i'm sick of all the insincere
so i'm gonna give all my secrets away.
-OneRepublic


i should really get used to being lonely. it's been a good while...so i should seriously just accept it by now. he's not coming. i want to wake up in the morning and just be at peace with the fact that i'm alone. single. and be completely okay with it. permanently be free of the opposite sex ever crossing my mind. maybe if i go to sleep fast enough, it'll seem like this never happened. and like magic, i'm okay.

what i hate the most about being alone isn't the fact that no one else is around. it isn't that there is no one to talk to, or laugh with. what i hate most is that it leaves no one else to think about except myself. it's like all my thoughts take a huge dive inward, hang out there, and refuse to move. i can't stand it.